Thursday, December 27, 2018

The Divination Project: Part 13: Knight of Swords

It had to happen sooner or later. Major writer's block. It wasn't for lack of things to write about, either. Nopedy-nope-nope-nope.

Nope.

Nope.

Nope.

Nopedy-nope.

Yes, this is how Alice's brain works. Right now, it's all, "Okay, dumbass, just say what you were going to say when you sat down here at your computer with your ice cream, and get it over with."

To which her heart responds, "Ice cream?! God yes, ice cream!!!"

And, after a couple of delicious bites of Caramel Cone, deliciously coating her tongue, her heart continues, "Oh. My. God. This is fucking amazing. Can't we just have ice cream, sex, rainbows, sunsets and unicorns, and say no to anything that makes us feel less than that?"

"Fuck yes," her heart says.

"Wait, we had a plan!" her mind says.

"Oh yeah, that whole thing where Alice was going to post a journal excerpt written in the first person, except writing about it in the first person was so triggering that she kept flipping back to third person, anyway, and she realizes that it is basically exactly what happens when she gets triggered through fear of condemnation and dissociates?" her heart continues.

Alice takes a really big bite of ice cream as her mind answers, "Maybe it is that Mercury conjunct Sun placement, combined with being an Aquarius. Oh, and Nolan has that same placement in his chart, plus being Aquarius rising, plus Uranus in Aquarius, and Neptune in Aquarius in the 12th House, dang that is a lot of... well, Nolan." And she smiles, because she loves Nolan deeply for these qualities.


She looks at the rest of his chart and notices his Venus in Aries and Mars in Sagittarius and thinks that Lou may just be the perfect person to help him with his confidence. She's an Aries, Sag Rising. But he's also a Pisces/Taurus cusper, and while usually go with the flow, sometimes he can be quite stubborn, or so Sally says.

Alice learned in her tarot class that Venus is what you look for in feminine energy, and Mars is what you look for in masculine energy, and she shakes her head. Her mother is an Aries/Pisces cusper, and Alice's Venus is in Pisces. Her father is a Capricorn, and her Mars is in Capricorn. So when she reacted to Lydia saying she didn't care for Scorpios (for the usual reasons) and Pisces, because Pisces are fishy, she was kind of reacting to a sudden awareness of her own fishy nature.

Could she write about that in the first person? Without italics?

I know sometimes I can be fishy. But I think it is one of my strengths. To not react as expected, to go with the flow. It is a gift to be able to surprise even oneself in a good way.

And I've actually met several Capricorns, male and female, and felt them to be extremely, well, magnetic? WTF is it about these slow, deliberate individuals that is so alluring? Is it the "slow and steady wins the race" lesson I learned from my father? Or are the planets in my chart pushing me toward these people?

"Wow, good job, Alice!" whoever is narrating this story says. Damn, this sounds like Nolan wrote it. He's twisted like this.

"Wait, who is who?" Now nobody is sure who is talking or writing or narrating.

She's really working over this ice cream, and man, it is gooooood!

And yes, she is high.

But anyway. That's beside the point.

The point is that Alice figured out there are some things she does need to write in private because when she thinks about the worst that could happen if someone read it, she actually is very afraid that she is not strong enough to handle the consequences in the worst case or maybe even the best case scenario. And by, "not strong enough," she's trying to send a message to anyone who actually gives a shit that there is a situation in her life that still triggers suicidal thoughts for her, and every attempt to create boundaries around that situation has been treated with absolute disregard.by the people involved, and dragging their characters through the mud doesn't feel right, because she's sure if they knew how much they hurt her, they would stop. Or maybe they really just won't. Maybe they don't understand that if you love someone you set them free? Maybe they think it's only appropriate to let go of someone out of hatred? Maybe she needs to make them hate her, then. But one thing's for sure, she needs a very, very long break from them and their drama and disrespect of her peace.

Damn, it is scary to even type that in the third person, Alice thinks.

So anyway, earlier she texted Charlotte to confirm that yes, indeed, sometimes a journal is the best place to write stuff out. Not everything has to be public.


***

During the last tarot class, she learned about the Past Life spread. Alice doesn't know much about Past Lives, except that maybe she was other people who didn't learn various karmic lessons. It's easier for her to think about her actual ancestors and the generational trauma passed down, and she thinks that is a great place for anyone to start self-improvement. Genealogy helps to understand certain things about the nature of our pain in this life. Alice learned a lot about her own triggers and how she inherited them subconsciously from her parents, who inherited them from theirs, through genealogy, meeting cousins, and discussing family history of shared ancestors.

She decides, to get her mind off the frustrations of the last few weeks, to try a Past Life Spread for the first time. She has two decks of cards on her computer desk - one the Osho Zen Tarot, which is still in the basement from when she did a reading for Charlotte. Charlotte refers to this three-card spread a lot in her writing, to the point of near obsession, and Alice has said that the cards aren't necessarily a conviction of the energy in a relationship, just representative of the time in question, and that energy shifts. She thinks Charlotte should have another reading for this reason! The other deck is the small Thoth deck she got when she thought she was getting the large Thoth deck. It is supposed to be one of the best for divination because there is a lot of abstraction in the artwork. Sometimes Alice carries it in her purse wrapped in a pink polka dot silk scarf her mother brought her from France. The cards are the size of regular playing cards, so Alice tends to zoom out rather than in when looking at this particular deck. She did get a large-sized Thoth deck and a carved box for it, but it's all the way upstairs and Alice is enjoying where she is.

She unties the little Thoth deck, and grabs the printout of the Past Life Spread, laying it on top of a pile of books by Marie-Louise von Franz, some art and genealogy magazines, the Osho Zen Tarot in its box, and the Najavits book about substance abuse and PTSD. Her desk is usually a mess these days. Many things are a mess, but now she sees how chaos in her life aids her process of divination and creativity. Chaos magick, indeed.

She does it the same way every time. Shuffle, just like playing cards, maybe even bridging the cards, three times. Cut the deck. Middle on top of left, then those cards on the top of the right ones. Then, the really satisfying shuffle that is easiest with slippery or broken in cards - she holds the deck in her left hand the short way, and the right hand the long way, pulling the cards away with her right hand, and leaving whatever remains by the pressure of her left thumb in her left hand, over and over until she gets through the whole deck. Three times. Then she pulls off the top of the deck, in order, unless something jumps out. Cards don't tend to jump with this deck, and when cards jump, she pays attention, unless she hasn't thought of her question yet. She usually tries to focus on her question if she hasn't come up with it by the time she is cutting the cards. For this spread, she just thinks, "Past Life messages for this particular Past Life spread... Please and Thank You."

Working with the cards is ritualistic, no matter where she is. She doesn't have an altar. She usually does readings sitting cross-legged on the floor. The ritual for her is what happens in her heart - the focus - and it's an energy she can reach as long as she feels she is in a safe place. That's a big reason she wouldn't trust readings from her when she's under duress, because she hates being put on the spot. If you read her astrological chart, you'll see that being put on the spot is somethings she really detests. It feels like an assault. But here, she is in her sacred space, sitting under her chicken lamp, writing. Yay! She knows that poor Carl is probably asleep upstairs, having hopefully the worst of his flu, Sally is spending time with her BFF (Best Fuzzy Friend) Charlie, the Lilac sable-point Lionhead rabbit, and Nolan is recreating the theme song from The Office with full orchestration using Midi, and Alice thinks that Lydia (who loves to compose music) and he need to spend some more time together.

Here's another important thing about Alice. Everywhere she feels free to be herself is sacred to her, because her home is in her heart. And so, she loves to travel (especially with just a few other people - not a huge herd, especially if it is on Carl's and her dime). She has had a lot of fun wandering off on her own adventures when accompanying Carl on business trips. She hates being in lock step with an army of other people, and this is nothing peculiar about her, it's a basic human need for autonomy. She is just consciously aware of it since reading Jung's The Undiscovered Self.

Like magic, while Alice is looking at the cards she has laid, Lydia sends a text saying that she messaged her boss telling him she will only work two days a week for the next month. Yay! More Lydia time!!! Lydia and Alice have had some discussions about going on some writing adventures together, maybe in New York City to start. Lydia likes to travel with her daughter in Europe and write about their adventures.

So, she has ten cards in this spread (Thoth Deck):

1) Current Karmic Lesson - Princess of Disks
2) Current Karmic Blessing - Ten of Swords
3) Experience in Between Lives - The Lovers, reversed
4) Circumstances around end of last life - Lust
5) Message from previous life - Six of Swords
6) Past life blessings you carried forward - Six of Cups
7) Lingering vibes from previous life - Eight of Wands, reversed
8) Lesson gained from previous life - Ace of Wands, reversed
9) Connecting purpose through lifetimes - Two of Disks, reversed
10) Outcome of present incarnation - Knight of Swords, reversed
Bottom card) Adjustment, reversed



Here's Alice's attempt:

The layout, on first glance, looks like a person with hands, calmness on one shoulder, temptation on the other, troubled in mind, and a heart with the appreciation for the good things in life. The hands are the tools I can use with others, moving away from bad energy, or responding in love. The legs give me energy to deal with the conflicts related to this energy imbalance, and it's a swift energy I can use.

(Princess of Disks) Right now I am learning about the difficulty of being a wife and mother in this lifetime. (Ten of Swords) It involves a lot of sacrifice, but only the amount the limitations of my own mind make it to be! My reality is, in big part, how I choose to see it. This is a great realization and blessing, after so many readings with the Eight of Swords, since I bought my first Tarot deck. I can choose to make time for good things in my life, or let my life be dominated by obligation and depression. (The Lovers) In between lives, in other words, through meditation and hypnosis, I find the completion I seek, which is  great, because in a past life, obligation and drama - not knowing how to stop and smell the roses - was a big problem, which may have led to my demise...

Alice looks at The Lovers card, which actually resembles a penis pointing at her, and she laughs thinking about all the times she had orgasms in her sleep when she was a teenager and when she was pregnant. "In between lives" she finds her "satisfaction." LOL.

(Six of Swords) But man, they say I am through the worst of it! I will be able to identify when situations or people are wasting my energy (sucking my soul) more easily, and oooh! Six of Cups - Soulmate Energy! - is the blessing I carry forward from my past life!

Alice thinks about the various tarot readers she has watched who get so excited about the Six of Cups, and wonders if it is yet another metaphor for something like the Alchemist making a trip to the Great Pyramids at Giza. And she's too lazy to run upstairs and get her favorite book of interpretations The Crowley Tarot: The Handbook to the Cards. She just knows that when she sees this card, she feels happy, like happiness is around the corner, and it often is. Instead, she looks online.

"The card is not so much about the act of sex, but rather about the wealth of emotional contentment that can arise from being in a fulfilled sexual relationship. Good sexual experience is one of the greatest acknowledgments of our physical state. It adds richness to our understanding of ourselves as humans." - Angel Paths

Alice wrinkles her brow and smirks. If past lives means "past" in history (meaning backwards in time), she knows this has at least a little to do with her generation of mothers having much better vibrators, and the time to use them due to other inventions like the vacuum cleaner and the dishwasher, and the good old 4th Wave Feminist Middle Finger. Yes, indeed. Her poor ancestors. And past selves!! Then she thinks of the special 1950's vacuum cleaner attachments she and Carl saw at the Sex Machine Museum in Prague last year and wonders if the door-to-door vacuum salesman actually gave demonstrations.

Okay, all jokes aside, a lot of this book has been about the highly sexual connection Alice and Carl have had. That part of their life has been more than satisfying when they are not feeling controlled by others. It's an important part of their life together. The big killer for it has been unnecessary stress from outside forces. They have both learned a lot about boundaries this year and how poor boundaries affect their mental health and their marriage, especially their sex life. This gets into the importance of awakening kundalini, probably, and all sorts of other fancy things, but Alice and Carl know how important that energy is, and they have an agreement that anything that gets in its way is OUT. Things that build it, IN. Quite literally. :P

Now that they are on the same page, Carl and Alice are much more free-flowing in their sexual life. It is more about enjoyment than relieving mutated anxiety, and maybe that's what this Six of Cups is about. It is nice to be at ease in her relationship with him again. It's been a really long time since they felt that way. Perhaps the energy in one's sexual relationship sets the bar for their other relationships, too? So maybe that means as Alice and Carl's relationship improves, maybe their relationship with others will improve, too? Everything is connected.

Alice remembers talking to Siggy almost two years ago, wondering why she didn't have closer friends, and Siggy saying that it typically means that there is a defect in the primary relationship.

"Primary relationship?" Alice had asked.

"Your marriage," Siggy responded. And that was what thrust Alice further down the rabbit hole, trying to understand what was broken in her marriage.

ENOUGH.

ENOUGH.

ENOUGH!!! Get back to your tarot spread, Alice.

Six of Cups! It's the bestest card, Alice. You earned this with some serious blood, sweat and tears. Many, many fucking tears. Be proud of it, and defend it! Phew!

Eight of Wands is the lingering vibes from my previous life, and it's funny because in the Thoth deck the wands are all jaggedy and kind of nervous, but there's also a rainbow, so maybe this is literally about my weirdo sexual vibe that I didn't know I had. That would be really strange. Usually it's about messages, though, and this is reversed, so maybe it's that I am exceptionally open to messages from "in between lives?" Oh yeah! That is awesome I picked up on that - it says that on the Angel Paths website. I have had several "gifts" bestowed on me on my journey, besides the gift of the Tarot, and one of them is extremely rapid karmic cycling. I mean, it seems rapid to me and everyone I know! The last cycles have happened so fast I haven't even had a chance to catch Charlotte up.

"There's just one warning - well didn't there have to be? This is a big bursting energy. It's as well to keep your balance firmly in the centre of your being. That way you won't get swept away by it!"


No shit, Sherlock. I get it. I get it. I wrote about 47,000 words in like 12 days for NaNoWriMo. I get it. And I thought that was fast. And now it's like a firehose, and I'm considering becoming a Tibetan Monk so I can get caught up. I see the importance of the condensation process, which can be aided by either time or meditation. I am so glad I meditated before writing today, since I have had four false starts trying to write about these recent karmic lessons. But yes, Yoga Nidra. Yes.

The lesson I gained from my previous life is the Ace of Wands, reversed. I always associate this with sex because of the YouTube readers, or some sort of passionate new beginning. I do feel like this is a passionate new beginning. I have direction! I am fascinated by the subconscious, and the Divine, and healing, and all this stuff that brought me the Six of Cups energy. I want to explore it, learn about it, and research it, because it is actually happiness. Like, I'M THE BOY IN THE ALCHEMIST AND I FOUND THE FUCKING GOLD IN EGYPT, BUT INSIDE OF ME. And I am not going to let anyone take that away from me, no, no, no.

It's like I said on Instagram in my Jean Valjean moment several months ago, "I have work to do. I have dragons to slay. Folks, you're either with me, trying to make the world a better place for everyone, or you're just trying to see what's in it for you. If it is the latter, just do us all a favor and be straight up with yourself and me. Don't waste my time and energy (time + energy = love). For those in the former camp, thanks for the understanding, thanks for every little act of love. You make the world worth living in."

I posted that August 30th, at the beginning of last semester. I had to go back to school after a really challenging summer to a place that held a lot of joyful and just a few profoundly sad memories, and the community totally cared for me. I think they knew how hard it was for me, and I really appreciate it. What an amazing gift community college was. I learned so much more than just 3D CAD for digital sculpting, or sculpture or art history. I learned about myself, and I learned about my purpose!

I saw that the book "Where'd You Go, Bernadette?" is being made into a movie, and I think how amazing the timing is, that almost exactly two years after I first read the book, trying to decide what class to take, the movie is coming out. It was required reading for the Technical Writing class I was considering as my first class. Out of curiosity, I decided to read the book, which was about a brilliant woman in middle age with a daughter who had a heart condition, married to a very successful tech genius, having trouble connecting with other mothers, having a total breakdown. The book TOLD ME I was supposed to follow my passion, which is not technical writing. It is art. It is expression. It is living in a way that integrates all the parts of me into a whole. It is the stripping off of mask and pretense. It is the awakening of my kundalini energy to heal myself and others.

And that, my friends, is why I took Sculpture class instead of Technical Writing.*

Ace of Wands.

Kundalini energy.

Boo-yeah.

The Universe totally has my back!

Okay, where was I?

Yes, Alice's journals read just like this, if you were wondering. And yeah, what she writes here is much tamer. <evil grin>

Connected purpose through lifetimes is the Two of Disks, reversed. My purpose is to make choices? I haaaaaaate making choices. I like to "find a way to yes." I hate burning bridges. Is that what this is saying? Do I need to learn how and why to burn bridges?

She thinks of Charlize Theron in Atomic Blonde, and thinks, "Hell, yes." And then she remembers how quickly she nearly burned a bunch of bridges in the last month, and what she really stood to lose. Charlotte. I almost lost Charlotte! Thank goodness for Carl, Nolan and Sally expressing their right minds! Charlotte texted her right after her therapy appointment and when Alice replied that the writer's block was removed, Charlotte simply replied, "Yeay! Don't want to interrupt the flow. :)," like a REAL GODDAMN FRIEND. Six of Cups!!!

Okay, I get it. I get it. Some people you just can't leave the energetic door open with, because they'll bring in a basilisk because they felt sorry for the basilisk. And they'll often spring that basilisk on you without warning - they'll wait until you're in a place where you've kind of committed to them, and then you're not sure if you should leave or stay and hope someone else slays the basilisk. Or maybe you fight the basilisk all alone for a while, and develop a distaste for any gatherings where the basilisk might show up. Then you watch everyone else kiss the basilisk's ass, and later listen to them wonder why the basilisk is still a fucking basilisk, when they still have basilisk shit on their upper lip and they can't even smell it! You personally have watched that basilisk with no feelings suck the energy out of the room, and out of everyone nearby, and you wonder how anyone could take the basilisk's side, unless the basilisk has poisoned their soul, too.

It's easy to see the basilisks, especially if you lead a relatively basilisk-free life. But if you've been surrounded by basilisks for most of your life (and have developed a taste for basilisk ass), it might be kind of hard to see people as basilisks (especially if you have developed a taste for basilisk shit), and when you finally do, it might be a little late. And sometimes you get sooooooo accustomed to eating basilisk shit that you think it is the only way to live, and that's because the basilisk has been telling you this all along. Even if you claim to believe otherwise to your non-basilisk associates, you're still taking on that basilisk energy on a subconscious level. Somehow, also, that basilisk convinces you that life here actually is hell, and that hell is because of other people (and not all the basilisks), and that if you just believe in all their basilisk nonsense, when you die, you'll go to basilisk heaven, because it's "God's Will to save the basilisks" and any hurt done to non-basilisks by basilisks was "God's Will." Also, you might think that your basilisk is not like the other basilisks, but when it comes right down to it, if it walks like a basilisk and talks like a basilisk, it's a motherfucking basilisk, folks!

People underestimate the power of the subconscious. An entire economy runs on marketing which is optimized to impact us on a subconscious level. It is the messaging system of the Patriarchy - messages of inadequacy spread to make us buy more, worry more, work harder, think less, breathe less, be less. Basilisk venom works on many levels, from the cellular to the spiritual.

I digress. The point is, to move forward in my life, I need no more dealings with basilisk associates. Sometimes it takes a while to figure those out, because on the surface they seem so cool and nice!!! But the drama that ensues, because nobody feels comfortable with who they are, and they can't just be, is way more trouble than it is worth.

ENOUGH! ALICE!!!! TAROT!

What does the website say? It says The Two of Disks is about fear of change, and stagnation. OH! RIGHT! Man, I totally wanted it to be about basilisks. But I like the idea that it represents my awareness that stagnation is toxic. And stagnation is truly combated not through material acquisition, but through self-improvement. Through knowing oneself, integrating with society, and sharing one's personal journey with society. Oh, and when you're friends with basilisks, that makes this whole process kind of difficult because of all the messages you believe even subconsciously about what a shitheel you are, so you get... stagnation.

Dang! And this all goes back to Jung's idea that to break the pattern of inter-generational trauma, we need to do the work within ourselves and share our journey with our children and with society. Which is the work of writers and artists, which I am both! And it's reversed, so I'm gonna say that this refers to my realization that I have a lot of work to do in the subconscious.

Or, I'm gonna have a really nice dream tonight, which is alright with me!
Nice!

Okay, the last card is the outcome of present incarnation - Knight of Swords, reversed. This is usually about "an offer" of fairly quick speed. Since this one is reversed, maybe I am going to be hearing from someone in particular in my dreams? Oh, maybe it's like that Paul Carrack song I kept trying to record off the radio in 7th grade when I had the crush on that cute skater boy with the rosy cheeks from milk allergy. "And we climb, and climb, and at the top we fly, and the world goes on below us, we are lost in time, and I don't know really what it is, but I've always thought you'd love me, in my dreams..." **

Aww, that's really cute. But maybe not real. But maybe... if I work on my psychic ability? Is that a thing? I mean, Pearl is writing a book about inter-dimensional sex, and all she and Charlotte talk about is Connie Willis, Connie Willis! I think I am supposed to read Connie Willis' Passage, and another book Charlotte and my Mom told me I would like.

Okay, let's look at the website.

Alice reads the website, eyes bulging. Often, court cards showing up in a reading are about specific people in our lives. Could this be who she is thinking of? Alice thinks she knows who this is, but she's not sure. Hopefully the Universe won't make it too difficult to figure out...

Oh duh, she realizes. It's me. I became the Knight of Swords. What better archetype to slay basilisks?

The overarching energy is Adjustment, which is about balance of yin and yang. For a long time, my energy was too yin. I mean, I knew this. This is why I burned moxa in my bellybutton for a winter. This is why I focus so much of my health research on metabolism!

"Life is a flowing river of energy -" the website says, "and when it is blocked for any length of time it behaves exactly as water does. It stagnates. When we fail to consistently assess or position and attitudes in relation to life - in general, and on a personal level - we too begin to stagnate... So on a day ruled by Adjustment, we need to take stock of ourselves. Have a look at habitual or routine behavior, and decide whether it is appropriate to your current state of mind, and position. Sometimes a thing becomes outdated, and loses its value3 as we change and alter. If you find anything like this decide to let go of it, to clear the way for new more appropriate actions... Think about the ways in which you approach life - do you feel you're getting the most out of it, and putting as much as you can into it? If not, think about why. For some of the fortunate people among us, happiness and contentment come as a result of simply deciding that these things are in our lives now, and then living each day reminding ourselves of that fact. So consider if you are one of those fortunate people who can simply choose to be happy, fulfilled and contented... and then do it."

Amen.

So yes, I dig the past life spread! 


***

*Results not typical.

**(FWIW, after writing this last night, Alice had a very satisfying "In Between Lives" experience with Carl watching).
 

Sunday, December 23, 2018

The Divination Project: Part 12: Natal Chart & MBTI

So, here's the deal. Alice had the grand idea of journaling about her astrological natal chart earlier this week, in order to show how she is trying to get to know herself, and share an important tool in her transformation. But various life events got in the way of writing when she was feeling more positive, and then there was the solstice, and the Full Moon in Cancer, and things got ugly, along the lines of:

"Saturn in Cancer. You could have difficulty in letting go and feeling life, preferring instead to think about it rather than do it. Afraid of the sense world, you avoid plunging in and fear being caught or tied down. "To be or not to be" is your question. There is a need to accept the responsibility and limitations of home life and family," and

"Cancer on the 8th House Cusp. Cancer is the mother of the zodiac, always making a home, protecting and providing a foundation for others. A sensitive sign where feelings and real experience count more than cold logic, it doesn't get any more physical and emotional than this. Cancer energy is always nurturing, sensitive, tender and moody. It feeds on emotional comforts, and often has a strong attachment to the past and ancestry," and

"Saturn in Cancer. May feel fundamentally unloved and unsupported, but can miss opportunities to receive support because of the basic attitude that she isn't going to get love," and

"House VIII in Cancer. House VIII is the area of emotional security and of security of the soul. Small inheritances."

It was too ugly for her to share. She was majorly focused on all the negative stuff in her chart, and specifically had picked it out to work on (because a few months ago when there was more sun, it was really helpful). Since then, she has learned that not only is she sensitive to the moon, but other planets, too, and she's finding that some people around her are as well.

For the morbidly curious, things really started falling apart when she wrote about her Venus square Neptune, and after several attempts, she decided, "Ah, fuck it. Who cares what is real and what is not? This trying not to feel crazy is making me feel crazy!" And, she finally came to the decision that she is officially jaded, at least for now, because everyone is nuts, and she needs a break from picking through the trail mix for the M&M's. (If you feel like you might be an M&M, send her a message). She was going in circles about what her motive for writing was in the first place - was it for self-improvement, or smoke signal, or? Then she decided that the real motive is NOT that she is trying to leave some legacy, but that this is her gold record being sent out into the ether to convince other worlds of intelligent life on earth. And, she's probably doing EXACTLY THE OPPOSITE. Ha!

After falling into the well of negativity (which is fueled by triggers around feeling not good enough through too much time spent with perfectionists, not enough time alone, and time approaching with many perfectionists), she ate some food and partook in some cannabis, and decided she would just post two samples of her birth chart to send a pretty accurate picture of who she is out into the Universe, to attempt to draw in the right energies (so, you might want to read this so you know exactly what sort of aliens to expect). Yes, this is a straight up attempt to circumvent the learning process that is karmic relationships. She's that tired. She's hoping it's more specific than pictures of her skin suit, even though it was fun taking the pictures.

Oh, also INTJ, usually. If that wasn't apparent. She has also been ISFP.

Allergic to cats and timothy hay, but not deathly allergic. Loves dogs, rabbits, guinea pigs, dessert and sleep-like states, including but not limited to sleep. Reserves the right to be High for the Holidays. If her other family members can be drunk, it seems fair that she can be high instead. Yep.


***


Here is Alice's natal chart from Chaos Astrology:

Astrology is not just predictive; it's also productive.

Astrology is an activity based on the principle of Unus Mundus - the Universe as Unity. Everything - from atom to galaxy - is rooted in the same universal and all-pervasive reality. And this reality reveals itself in the purposeful, ordered and meaningful processes of nature, as well as in the deepest recesses of the human mind and spirit. 'As above - so below'. Anything happening in one part of the system gets mirrored in a self-similar way everywhere else.
Quantum Physics tells us that the very act of observing something changes it. And the Butterfly Effect of Chaos Theory shows how even the tiniest flap of a wing can eventually produce a hurricane. Upon examining my own life, I can see how the slightest shifts of direction have led me down some very divergent paths and presented me with infinitely strange and beautiful experiences. But the most satisfying and successful of these experiences have come when I was going with the flow of time and determinism.

The Universe, being the accommodating creature that she is, will provide confirmation of almost any paradigm we adopt. Mental events (perception) and acts of free will carry with them pure information which is transmitted instantly throughout the material world. To this extent, we live in an observer-created reality. Something out there (the Great Organizing Dynamic, as some have called it) responds to what we believe about ourselves and our world. From this standpoint, you are a channel, a vehicle, an agency, an instrument, a representative. And your birth chart may best be described as an output program - an indication of what should be flowing into manifestation through you. Although I might speak of 'my' horoscope, in a very practical sense, it does not belong to me - rather I belong to it. As do all the other entities, animate and inanimate, that came into being at about the same time and place. Cosmic Powers, if indeed there are such things, appear to use me and what I have to offer, and not the other way 'round.

You will not get the best out of your birth chart unless you become a go-between worthy of relaying the best. Concentrate first on construction and creativity, and use astrology to define the possibilities as you go along. In the fractal logic of astrology, each planet, sign and house is a self-similar unity complete with its own rewards. For example, you may have transiting Jupiter conjunct your natal Sun. The usual interpretation of this aspect is one of increased vitality, luck and optimism. In reality however this may or may not happen, because the promise of a Jupiter-Sun contact cannot happen without the proper conditions first being in place. And only you can put them there. By adopting an out-going attitude, by exploring new dimensions, by playing with ideas rather than holding rigidly to one static model, you put yourself into the Jupiter mode. By opening up to the Universe in this way, you actually invite luck into your life, and create a positive feedback loop of openness and optimism, which attracts more of the same.

The Luminaries: Sun and Moon
The state of the solar system at the time of your birth points to self-similar (fractal) qualities within you. But of all the planets, the "lights" - the Sun and Moon - are thought to indicate the main polarity of your being. In psychology, this has been articulated in the concept of complementarity between the conscious and unconscious contents of the mind. The Sun and Moon act as positive and negative poles - an intentional, directing element (Sun), and a suggestible, receptive one (Moon). In a beneficial relationship, the emotional conditioning of the Moon is given a purposive and positive expression by the astrological Sun. This has been called 'intentional living'. Wherever we allow our consciousness (attention) to rest, that we vitalize.

The Astrological Sun 
There is only one center to our solar system, and there is only one center to your psyche. The Sun is the great central powerhouse which illuminates us and shows us where we can get the most from life by radiating all that our sun represents. In Jyotish, the astrology of the Hindus, the Sun is known as 'atma karaka', or soul indicator, signifying a person's confidence, authority and power - the ego center of the horoscope. The Sun is our central identity and 'true self', in that it is toward this more than anything that we should be moving and developing. Thus, it represents that which we wish to become and those we look up to. It is also our essence, our bliss, and that which we do for the sheer fun of it. The Sun is creativity, original flair, celebration and glory - the quality of output we tend to expect from heros and celebrities. But we are each capable of giving out more than we do - and I don't mean money. The Sun is about having a purpose large enough to animate the whole of your life and going about it with a tone of appreciation and joie de vivre. Your Sun shows how and where you can shine. Light your fire!

Sun in Aquarius. You are open-minded, liberal and have a definite sense of mission. Above all, you are progressive, and enjoy putting into practice that which is good for all. Your altruism may appear to others as coolness, but you are only being democratic; a free-force. You refuse to dictate or be dictated to. At home with different cultures and people, you love working with diverse groups and should align your life activity with some social cause, concept or ideal in order to establish your significance within society. You are strong on reformation and may sometimes intentionally go against the grain in order to draw focus on some revolutionary or innovative plan for the future. A great individualizer, your goal is to become that 'uncommon creature' within the larger group. Your genius is your undying belief in the promise of tomorrow. Aquarius is the sign of humanitarian goals. Always impartial and nonsectarian, Aquarian energy is communal (even global). The focus is on the goal, and the goal is always one that is for the many and not the few. Thus this sign is connected to far-seeing visions, world views and group work of all kinds.

Sun Sextile Moon. Able to grow and progress throughout life without major emotional difficulties. Yin (female) and yang (male) energy flows easily. Resources are at hand, as are the necessary instruction on how to use them. There is an inner sincerity and naturalness that does not resist life, but looks for the truth of life as it is. A special gift for spanning generation gaps; bringing older and younger spirits together. Easily gains the respect of others.

Sun Conjunct Mercury. Mentally active. Intellectual expression comes easily, but is often restless and lacking patience because the mind operates so quickly. Ablility to excel in speaking, writing and all types of communication, but can lack objectivity. Witty and humorous with a dramatic mind, will benefit by being in a teaching or lecturing occupation. Mind wants to capture as much new information as possible, so travel when you can.

Sun Sextile Neptune. A natural ability to grasp visionary matters. Much of the self-image is wrapped up in the ability to work with imagery, dreams and the imagination. Naturally sensitive, the consciousness is open and receptive to the subtle pulses of life. Drawn to music, poetry and the so-called 'metaphysical'. There is an innate 'self-less-ness' and devotion to the promotion of high ideals.

Sun Trine Pluto. A real talent for working with sensitive material and touching upon the more vulnerable areas of life. Able to handle 'delicate' matters without breaking stride, for emotional and tender areas of the human psyche don't phase. Enjoys getting beneath the surface and has an innate savvy for handling touchy subjects. Perfect aspect for any research investigation or detective work.

The Astrological Moon
The astrological Moon symbolises memory, memes and conditioning - the habitual, instinctive, unconscious side of our nature, and therefore the most predictible. Our interface with the environment - how we react to it - is best indicated by the Moon's position and the planets it aspects. Because it represents our upbringing and emotional background, the Moon denotes our sense of belonging and well-being (or not) and what we need in order to feel comfortable and content. But all too often the tendency is for the Moon to reflect back the frayed impressions of old hurts and vendettas, thereby wasting precious energy on painful and unproductive distractions of the past. Clearly what is needed is a more aspiring attitude; one in which we are continually banging our cup and demanding that our needs be satisfied! What is your special hunger? What kind of stimulation do you need in order to feel good about yourself? True gratification can be had only by feeding your Moon. The Feast of the Present is spread out around you

Moon in Sagittarius. Enterprising, you can even be happy in austere settings, for you have an innate awareness of future possibilities and prospects. Religion, truth and the world of philosophy are of great interest to you. Your knack for understanding opinions, ideologies and how we form them makes you good at politics too. The Sagittarian Moon tends to be more committed to ideas - regardless of the emotional costs - than they are to people. You bring a sense of honesty to any group, are freedom-loving, independent, and at times even a trifle remote. You are not bound by your emotions and are thus not much of a domestic person, prefering to align your life activities with something bigger.

Moon Sextile Mercury. Good mental dexterity and emotions color the thought processes. Ideas and images connect easily with popular trends and concensus feelings. Good memory, intellectual perceptivity and flexibility. Understands and performs well with younger people, knows what it takes to create a supportive environment and to communicate effectively, so makes a natural teacher.

Moon Square Jupiter. Emotional buoyancy and growth. There is great optimism and an ability to bounce back easily from negative experiences. Gains favours and the trust of others very easily, as it is seen as genuinely giving. Enjoys helping others solve their problems and giving them a new perspective. Ability to counsel others is excellent and is often sought out for advice. There is a strong desire for both closeness and freedom, and a pronounced affinity for getting into the philosophical grounds of things. Prefers moving forward to maintaining the status quo.

The Planets: Agents of the Cosmos

The planets of astrology are not just giant balls of rock and gas, but fractal reflections of the different facets of reality - whole self-consistent categories of meaning. They reveal tendencies which are in a continual state of 'becoming'. But each individual is responsible for developing his or her attributes and actively integrating the planets' detailed messages. Having had the broad qualities pointed out, you are free to work with or against the cosmic current. But you will only benefit from the universal self-organising process by intentionally and planfully improving on those features as depicted in your birth chart. We only get where we're going by moving in the right direction. Destiny is a matter of Destination.

The Astrological Mercury
Mercury is the articulate messenger - Hermes - master of the networks, change and complexity. He represents mentality: words, thoughts, ideas, communications. But more generally, this is the planet of connections - everything that links and conveys - synchronicity - the magical crossroads at which the observer stands to see the 'similarity of meaning' in the converging strands of various causes and effects. This is the meeting place of mind and matter, where logic, wit and reason are brought into play. The power of thought. The power of words. The ancestor of every action is a thought, and how we say something is often more important than what we say. Words trigger attitudes and set up resonances of their own, continuing to do their work even when the attention is elsewhere. Guided by your Mercury, you begin to construct a bridge between yourself and the world, bringing together all the unique circumstances needed to trigger results that none of them could have produced on their own. Mercury shows how you can 'hijack' people, places and situations to your best advantage - the way you can go about getting your way.

Mercury in Aquarius. Original and clever, you thrive mentally on the abstract and dialectical. You are an impartial thinker, democratic to the point of being impersonal, and fascinated by the latest technology. Mercury is very much at home in this sign and it often produces the most innovative thinkers and inventors. Always thinking of the world as a unity, you are idealistic and believe in putting into practice what is preached. Group-conscious and future-oriented, often witty, quick and chatty, you find it easy to see through large concepts and schemes. When it comes to 'mindgames', others would find it you to be a most worthy opponent.

Mercury Sesquiquadrate Pluto. Anyone who tries to get you to play with words is in for a big surprise. Your mind cuts right through all the window dressing and gets right down to the quick. Before anyone knows it, you have the heart of the matter out front for everyone to see. You would make a great investigator, either in scientific research or undercover work. It makes no difference. Your ability to get to the point is all but phenomenal. You can talk and put into words areas of the psychological that others wouldn't touch with a ten-foot pole.

The Astrological Venus
Venus is harmony. She symbolises our relationship with all that we meet in the world. When we appraise or appreciate something, whether that be another person or a possession, this is Venus - the sense of love or appreciation we feel. Venus is reciprocity, interaction with others, compromise, reconciliation and balance. She is also our need for approval, and how we seek it - 'we' consciousness and union. This ability to get-it-together is also tested by our talent (or lack of) for developing a sense of wealth and affluence. Venus is what we love, feel comfortable with and what appeals to us. And she has much to do with desires, luxuries and their enjoyment. She is also about making oneself enjoyable. Thus her energy is what has been called the 'courtier spirit', which means being agreeable and smoothing the path. In many ways she shows us how we can get the most, both relationship-wise and financially, out of life. As the planet of balance and resources, Venus speaks to us about the ways one influences the other; for as any successful businessperson will tell you, you must be willing to spend money in order to make it. This is the lifeblood of commerce - there must be an out-going as well as an in-coming flow of energy. Good relationships require give-and-take, as do all successful enterprises.

Venus in Pisces. You make deep commitments in relationships, and appreciate sacrifice and duty on the part of others. At home in the world of the dreamer and mystic, you have great intuition. You are always willing to sublimate and take the back seat. You are a true romantic at heart. All things musical, psychological and poetic will appeal.

Venus Sextile Mars. You love to work with younger people and would make a superb teacher or coach. You appreciate a heart-felt approach and are an enthusiast if there ever was one. You understand and encourage emotions, feelings and creativity and find it easy to work in these areas. You value drive and the ability to get things done. Matters of the heart, marriage, and the like are areas where you can help others.

Venus Trine Saturn. You could be an excellent teacher in areas requiring discipline and organization. You value order and place a high premium on hard work and effort. You like to get down to the bare bones, to what is essential. Whatever is most practical is best, and you appreciate things that are durable and long-lasting. You love truth, philosophy, law, and the like.

Venus Trine Uranus. Your ability to discriminate real breakthroughs and to spot new trends makes you able to work in areas at the very fringe of technology. You love all that is new and different and are expert at sharing your feelings with others. Electronics, computers, communications (in fact, everything electrical) are right up your alley. You value independence in partners, friends, and love. You are what is called a "free spirit".

Venus Square Neptune. You place a high value on your dreams and ideals and don't consider them otherworldly or impossible. You experience the unity around you -- that which joins things together. There is a love of the sea and of whatever solves that which separates us. Mysticism, mythology, poetry, and music are natural. These are all known items to you. People who encounter you may sometimes feel deceived by your remarkable vision, which they enjoy when they are with you but find hard to maintain by themselves. They wish the world were like you say it is.

The Astrological Mars
Mars is the planet of motivation and drive. It is the self-starting impetus, initiative and energy we need to get moving. When we search for the meaning of something, life or whatever, it is Mars that urges us on and keeps us searching. Mars also drives us against things too, as when it sends us into war and combat. Mars looks for the challenge, takes charge and pushes forward with a pioneering spirit. Mars is purposeful, direct and courageous; where our passion is, there we find the planet Mars. Thus it also has to do with ardor and impulses, and often signifies the sex-drive, especially in a man's chart. Martian energy enjoys becoming involved in the thrust of life - acting promptly on an urge and, within that conviction, creating more trust in its own actions. This is a circular process: The more we trust and act, the more we receive impulses that can be trusted.

Mars in Capricorn
You are a very hard worker and are driven to accomplish, manage, and be in control. You like to manipulate a situation for its own benefit and would make a natural supervisor. You have an inner urge for order and organization and a strong sense of responsibility. You are competent, ambitious and cool, capable of great self-denial in pursuit of your goals. Just be careful not to take things too seriously or to the point of driving yourself to depression.

Mars Opposite Saturn. You are responsible to the extreme, always taking on obligations and pushing yourself to the limit. You pursue your obligations with much emotion and obvious enthusiasm. You are spartan when it comes to your needs and surroundings. Small and less are beautiful for you. If anything, you try too hard and tend to force things. Others may find your approach too severe. You can be too sober and frugal.

Mars Square Pluto. You have a relentless drive to get at the heart of things, whatever is under the surface or behind the scenes. Your relentless pursuit of anything hidden or secret makes you a researcher or investigator bar none. Emotionally you are also hot stuff, rushing into areas and handling subject matter that others would never come near. Vulnerable issues, sensitive areas of the self, and psychology are the first places you head. This amounts to a passion with you. Those around you may find you just too intense to be around. It puts them through a great many changes. Sex drive is very strong and needs outlet.

The Astrological Jupiter
When it comes to an astrology of success and empowerment, some planets are more important than others simply because of their nature. As the planet of outreach and exploration, Jupiter plays a very important role here. The Hindu word for Jupiter is 'Guru' (Teacher), and Jupiter is about having an outlook or belief system - something we can identify with or look forward to. It shows how we search for meaning in our lives, and therefore has much to tell us about our 'ideal' vocation. Jupiter is the guiding philosophy which provides us with our sense of direction and shows us how to approach life's problems. Jupiter is 'conscience', ethics, as well as our opinions and how we form them. It represents our speculations about the world and can tell us much about the process of self-discovery. As the 'lord of opportunity', prosperity, affluence, and all the benefits we earn through our outgoing-ness and out-giving to others, Jupiter's position in your chart is instrumental in determining your capacity for optimism and attracting luck. To enhance Jupiter's benefit in your life, follow the indications of his placement in your chart. In general, by adopting a spread of effort rather than a concentration - by accepting Life's invitations and maximising what they have to offer - by saying 'yes' to the exotic and unfamiliar - we deliberately extend our range of contacts and interests whereby luck can reach us. There is an organic connection between this attitude and the arrival of the good things in life. A note of warning though, you can have too much of a good thing.

Jupiter in Pisces. You have a real empathy for people and a genuine ability to sacrifice yourself to help others. You have a love of what's beyond appearances - psychology, mysticism and occult subjects. Intuitive, sensitive to emotions and sympathetic, you are always giving of yourself and would make an excellent counselor. You attract luck into your life through 'free-ranging' and keeping your options open.

The Astrological Saturn
Saturn is the prince of the material world - the planet of materialisation and incarnation, self-containment and personal distinction. Saturn rules the limitations of the world we live in and so indicates where we are bound to learn self-discipline and duty - whether we like it or not! It is the boundaries around us that make identity possible. As time passes, you slowly but surely crystallise a personal identity, distinct and unique from the others around you, by excluding whatever does not seem compatible with your purpose. Each new day adds to this evolutionary sense of 'I', with the object being an increased sense of responsibility. Saturn is said to be the hard taskmaster, the planet that keeps us from getting carried away in one direction or another. And although it seems to limit and undermine, it also defines and clarifies. For it is the process of sedimentation - building layer upon layer with structure and control - whereby we see our ambitions realised. Nothing worthwhile can be accomplished without determination, concentration, persistence, commitment and patience.

Saturn in Cancer. You could have difficulty in letting go and feeling life, preferring instead to think about it rather than do it. Afraid of the sense world, you avoid plunging in and fear being caught or tied down. "To be or not to be" is your question. There is a need to accept the responsibility and limitations of home life and family.

Saturn Square Pluto. You may have a tendency to avoid sensitive subjects and to take refuge in duties and responsibilities rather than face issues that might disturb you or put you through some changes. You are a stern pragmatist in all that is psychological -- whatever wells up from inside us. Your need for psychological security and absolute truth in all matters cuts through most chit-chat and settles on core material. You concentrate on deep, inner changes in you and in others - depth psychology.

The Astrological Uranus 
To live a full and satisfying life, you must be vividly yourself. Many of us are afraid to be different, and the pressure to conform can be stifling. But to live creatively is to find your own way, even if this means going against the grain. This urge to free-will and self-authorisation is Uranus, the planet of fierce independence. Surprise can be stimulating - the jab that gets you out of the rut. And if you want to ride the wave of chaos instead of being swallowed by it - if you want to liberate yourself from the disruptions and shocks around you - you must voluntarily keep out of the groove. Realise that change is the only constant phenomenon. In randomness is all potential. Disorder increases possibilties. Chance! Uranus is the reverse of the status quo and always unconventional and heretical: If life is accidental, we are free to give it any point we like. Become Yourself!

Uranus in Scorpio. You are innovative in sexual matters (anything taboo) and have insights into what makes our darker side tick. All things mystical and occult hold your interest. Drugs too. You have new thoughts on desires and possessions. You enjoy sex and respect cravings of all kinds.

The Astrological Neptune
Neptune is the desire and ablility to transcend normal consciousness and everyday waking life - to dream the impossible dream. This 'divine discontent' can be the cause of much mischief in itself, for to pursue the Ideal is often to avoid the reality of how things are. But, when it comes to many of the apparently insolvable problems, the Neptunian approach is often the most sensible and practical: Rise above it and get over it! The healthy tendencies of Neptune lie in its ability to see the cosmic humor in almost anything; to laugh at life's absurdities. And sometimes laughter is the only genuine response - the last great act of defiance! This is the art of 'sitting loose to life', which means developing a less resisting, more surrendered attitude in which we expect the best of all unfulfilled possibilities and potentials - and never stop dreaming! 


Neptune in Sagittarius. Idealism is an innate talent, and you are in love with grand gestures and long thoughts. Religion, politics and philosophy are natural interest. The world traveler, you enjoy fair, just, frank and broad-minded persons. You are gregarious and sports-minded. You dare to dream big. You like new philosophies and long novels.

Neptune Sextile Pluto. You work with real imagination and understanding in areas of the mind that are the most personal or private -- depth psychology. You are like a midwife of the spirit, assisting at the birth of each individual going through a spiritual or re-birth process. You accept the natural process of birth, spiritual and physical, and have dedicated yourself to helping it along. You would make a great teacher in these areas.

The Astrological Pluto
Pluto is the planet of profound change, starting deep within you and moving toward the surface, often touching upon the most sensitive areas. It's about waking up to the 'hidden things', and doing so by reaching an intensity of awareness whereby, once touched, you have no choice but to change and grow. Pluto is the process of becoming fully conscious of (revealing) what has been happening all around you, even though you may not have been aware of it. Like sex and death - you get to a certain stage in your development and suddenly you realise what's going on. Pluto is first-hand sensitive experiences and times of complete identification with a person, feeling or idea. This is very intense stuff, and to touch upon this material is to go through permanent change and transformation - inner alchemy.

Pluto in Libra. Change and inner growth tend to come through relationships, both friends and lovers. Marriage or union (yoga) will be very intense and not at all superficial. You get to the heart of a relationship each and every time.

House Activity and Emphasis
Astrologers agree that astrology is first of all the study of the angular relationships between the planets themselves. But this planetary framework is seen to shift and modify itself as the planets slowly move across the backdrop of the signs, the so-called 'fixed stars' which make up the zodiac. As the earth turns daily on its axis, the planets and signs appear to move across our field of vision through what astrologers have termed 'houses'. The sun rises at dawn and can be seen on the eastern horizon, or first house cusp, or ascendant. It reaches 'midheaven' at noon, and sinks below the western horizon at the descendant.

Like the twelve signs of the zodiac, the twelve houses of the horoscope can be viewed as stages in a complete cycle: From the initial thrust of Aries and the first house, to the maximum entropy symbolised in Pisces and the 12th house. They provide clues as to which areas of your life can be given special attention and used depending on the signs and planets residing there. Here is an analysis of the house activity in your chart based on sign and planet emphasis. As you read along, keep in mind that each house represents a department of life, and the sign falling on each house cusp indicates the mode of action applied to the affairs of that house. In other words, the sign on each house cusp, along with any planet(s) contained therein, shows how one deals with the conditions of that house.

The First House
The first house, also called the ascendant or rising sign, is a dharma house and connected with motivation and our approach to life. It also has to do with how we come across to others, thus our appearance and how we make a first impression. The ascendant is the essential stuff that bubbles up in us spontaneously - what is obvious to others as our trademark look or approach. The first house shows our ability to be recognised, how we make a directed effort, and how we exert our will. Cultivate the strategies of this part of your chart to move forward in life.

Sagittarius on the 1st House Cusp. Sagittarius is nothing if not direct, candid, and to the point, for this sign is always concerned with the absolute truth of the subject at hand. Associated with philosophy, outreach and all things boundless, Sagittarian energy is always welcome in politics as well as social and community endeavors where its basic fairness and expansiveness is helpful.

Moon in the 1st House. The face you show the world is that of an emotionally sensitive and receptive person. Emotionally, you are an open book and inclined to wear your feelings on your sleeve. Your moods also impact strongly on those around you. However, because you tend to be guided by your feelings, you can be inconsistent, changeable and moody. Professionally, you have a need to be in touch with others in your environment, and may show talents for working in the public sector or food industry.

Mars in the 1st House. You are bold, assertive to the point of combative, and impatient by nature. You can tend to act first, think later, or jump to conclusions. Not content with just watching life from the sidelines, you need to have direct experiences and to feel that you are living life to the max. Equally, you can be headstrong and inconsiderate; wanting things your own way or not at all. Physically, you should enjoy good stamina and body strength. However, with your tendency to impulsiveness, there may be accidents and injuries, especially to the head.

The Second House
The second house is connected with matters of wealth; how we respond to, enjoy and get in harmony with our surroundings. This is how we hold or acquire things (possessions, material goods, money, and other resources), and how we gain material support and sustenance. The second house refers to how we secure ourselves, how we make a firm foundation, as well as the kind of response we get from life and those around us. Therefore it has much to say about our material rewards.

Capricorn on the 2nd House Cusp. Capricorn is the business head of the zodiac, for it is the very opposite of the emotional Cancer. Given to clear ambition and practical insight and vision, this sign always takes a distanced perspective and a cool appraisal. Deliberate and painstaking, sometimes to the point of austerity, Capricorn loves work and the hard-earned results. Status and material reward are very important.

Sun in the 2nd House. Money matters are important to you and you're motivated to gain material security and stable financial circumstances in life. You seek power and status through acquiring material wealth, and there can be advantages in associating with important or significant people. When engaged in financial transactions, you're generally fair and honorable; however you can drive a hard bargain, and are prone to materialism and acquisitiveness.

Mercury in the 2nd House. Your mind is often focused on financial matters, in particular your ability to manage, earn or spend money. You have a good mind for trade and commerce, and may succeed in business, especially in fields such as banking, communications, publishing, travel, transport, accountancy and economics. While you are generally switched on financially, you may need to guard against falling prey to con-artists.

The Third House
The third house shows how we make connections and communicate with the world. This is where we draw parallels, make comparisons, and sort through it all. A very mental house, it is concerned with finding, gathering, all manner of questioning, articulation and conversation. In short, it symbolises the functions of the rational mind - linking observations and ideas, and using them to our advantage.

Aquarius on the 3rd House Cusp. Aquarius, the sign of humanitarian goals and altruism. Always impartial and nonsectarian, Aquarian energy is communal (even global). The focus is on the goal, and the goal is always one that is for the many and not the few. Thus this sign is connected to far-seeing visions, world views and group work of all kinds. This sign tends towards coolness, independence.

Venus in the 3rd House. In love, you are attracted to people who stimulate you intellectually and engage you in good conversation. You have a love of the arts, music, theater, literature and poetry. Charming in your dealings with people, you desire peaceful relations with others and will go to great lengths to avoid arguments and disharmony. Relationships with your relatives and neighbors tend generally to be good.

Jupiter in the 3rd House. You have an open mind and are interested in many things - often all at once! You are motivated by the urge to learn and extend your general knowledge, and are especially interested in philosophy, spiritual subjects and education. You could succeed as a teacher, mediator, communicator or commentator. As a rule, you enjoy keeping active and mobile, resulting in many short journeys on a day-to-day basis. You also tend to have good relations with your relatives and neighbors. A born investigator and researcher, always inquiring, searching, following things to their logical conclusion, your career will probably be built around these qualities and your talent for making connections.

The Fourth House
The fourth house is a very emotional house, concerned with matters of comfort and security. Here is how we create the right conditions, the matrix or womb, in which our desires can flourish; the climate necessary for things to grow. It's about receptivity, nurturing and all the self-protective measures we take to ensure a secure base of operations. This is why the fourth house is related to the mothers, all 'mothering' functions, domestic issues and feeling 'at home'.

Aries on the 4th House Cusp. Aries is the sign of pioneers, leaders and 'firsts'. It is impulsive, assertive and spontaneous. It tends to act first, only thinking about what it may have done later. Rushing in where others fear to tread, Aries energy is attention-getting and always provokes a response from the surroundings and from others. It takes decisive action and loves self-reliance.

The Fifth House
The fifth house, another dharma or 'life purpose' house, has to do with creativity and warm out-going self-expression. Here is where we find our originality and flair, enthusiasm, and even pride in ourselves, building confidence and self-esteem. This is the life area of personal sovereignty, where we begin to recognise and appreciate our own dynamic and playful nature. All forms of creative expression (including love affairs and offspring) are connected with this house.

Taurus on the 5th House Cusp. Taurus is about drawing on the bounty of the earth, and seeking material security and physical safety there. It is the on-going, enduring, unchanging and preserving element. Hightened sensory input is also important, for it is the mission of this sign to not only find a sense of place within the material realm, but to enjoy it to the fullest, becoming physically aware of, and bonding with the environment.

The Sixth House
The sixth house is the house of physical efficiency. Here we separate the wheat from the chaff; get a sense for what is useful, what is not, and make the best of it. This is the life stage of 'apprenticeship', where we make a connection between mind and matter, adapt ourselves to a situation and then seek to improve upon it. Hence the connection of the sixth house with routine; 'practice makes perfect'. The sixth house shows how well we handle the details of life - our ability to solve problems and get our way.

Taurus on the 6th House Cusp. Taurus is about drawing on the bounty of the earth, and seeking material security and physical safety there. It is the on-going, enduring, unchanging and preserving element. Hightened sensory input is also important, for it is the mission of this sign to not only find a sense of place within the material realm, but to enjoy it to the fullest, becoming physically aware of, and bonding with the environment.

The Seventh House
The seventh house, the descendant - opposite of the ascendant - is connected with partnerships, relationships and 'significant others'. Here is where we learn to strike a balance - the art of give and take. All that carries us beyond our personal self (and into an awareness of contradictory or complementary points of view) is symbolised by the seventh house. This is where we respond to the personal needs of others. Therefore marriage and union (yoga) are indicated by this house, as well as one's ability to respond to a marriage partner.

Gemini on the 7th House Cusp. Gemini is concerned with connections, communication and logic -- voice, thoughts, writing, and rational mental processes in general. It is also concerned with making comparisons, 'twins' and duplications of all kinds. Gemini is the communicator, the gossip of the zodiac, the collector of trivia. Gemini energy is unattached, independent, very inquisitive and changable.

Saturn in the 7th House. You view relationships with others seriously and realistically, and have a strong sense of responsibility and fairness in your dealings with people. Marriage or significant partnerships tend to be stable and enduring. Equally however, coolness or emotional remoteness can lead to difficulties, feelings of loneliness and separation. You may be attracted to others of a wide age difference to you. Possibly, a partner may be obstructive, critical and uncooperative. Opponents or enemies can be persistent and relentless; and legal difficulties may be experienced. It can also be difficult for you to feel close, as you are very demanding of others. In marriage, you are not satisfied with superficiality and want a lasting union.

The Eighth House
The eighth house is the house of first-hand transformative experiences and situations - those areas of life that we may not care to face, but we must face sooner or later... the so-called 'inevitables' of life, such as death and taxes. The eighth is also concerned with catharsis; the getting rid of excess parts of ourselves that we no longer need. This house covers initiations of all kinds, as well as activities where we find ourselves transformed toward a more integral position. Thus it also covers any jointly held resources, their problems and their benefits.

Cancer on the 8th House Cusp. Cancer is the mother of the zodiac, always making a home, protecting and providing a foundation for others. A sensitive sign where feelings and real experience count more than cold logic, it doesn't get any more physical and emotional than this. Cancer energy is always nurturing, sensitive, tender and moody. It feeds on emotional comforts, and often has a strong attachment to the past and ancestry.

The Ninth House
The ninth house shows where we are willing to go beyond our everyday experience in search of meaning. Traditionally the house of 'long journeys', the ninth house is where we take journeys both of the body and the mind. Philosophy, beliefs, speculation, opinions and how we form them all belong to this house. Any time we reach out, explore new territory, or align our activities with something bigger, we are operating in the realm of the ninth house. Along with Jupiter's position, here is where we can attract luck by keeping open and receptive to opportunities.

Leo on the 9th House Cusp. Leo energy is expressive, vital and exuberant. Often very artistic, and always theatrical and dramatic, this is the sign of creativity and the arts. Warm and big-hearted, Leo lives in full appreciation and celebration of the finer elements of life, bringing a dynamism and enthusiasm to everything it touches. This is the fearless 'becoming' stage, where things are done for their own sake, playfully and with pleasure.

The Tenth House
The tenth house, commonly called the midheaven, is the house of success and glory, practical vision and achieving a public distinction. Therefore one's reputation and career are often connected with this house. The sign on the tenth house cusp, as well as any planets located therein, show how we can strive to be a benefit to - as well as how we can benefit from - society. The tenth house is about having a goal in life and the self-determination to reach it. Here is how we can 'live our calling' and become self-piloting individuals.

Libra on the 10th House Cusp. Libra energy is always responsive and conciliating, assuming the appropriate reaction or delicately-weighted strategic response to any question or statement. What is sometimes seen as two-faced is only Libra's facility at responding to each in kind, giving both sides equal consideration. This is certainly the social sign, par excellence. Impersonal and impartial, this sign doles out only what is demanded - nothing overdone, but nothing neglected.

Pluto in the 10th House. You desire a measure of power and recognition in life, and can achieve positions of authority in your profession; however, you may need to guard against dictatorial inclinations, as these will cause unfavorable reactions in others. Possibly, employers or co-workers may act unreasonably towards you, but given time, your tremendous practical sensibilities and drive can root out and expose their injustices.

The Eleventh House
The eleventh house is where we put our visions and dreams to work for others. The most future-oriented of the houses, the eleventh shows our hopes and dreams, and the opportunities we may have to reach them; how we can turn our dreams into reality. Therefore this house has always been connected with altruistic and humanitarian goals, as well as having the self-authorisation to set them in motion. Inventive and unusual, eleventh house activities often break from conformity, establishing new and unprecedented states of being.

Scorpio on the 11th House Cusp. Scorpio is intense, passionate, and very personal. It rushes past superficialities and right to the heart of any matter. A loyal friend but a fanatic foe, this sign does well in politics and all areas where someone who dares is rewarded. Associated with sexual energy, Scorpio loves to get involved, going down deeper, coming up dirtier, and laying bare anything that lies hidden there. 

Uranus in the 11th House. You tend to establish friendships with people who are unusual and inclined to go their own way in life. Also, your choice of friends may not always meet with the approval of others. Your friends may range from geniuses and innovators to social isolates and eccentrics, and friendships are likely to be made and broken suddenly.

The Twelfth House
The twelfth house is where consciousness dawns - the house of the rising Sun. This is the indeterminate state - the chaos before the new impulse - where all is yet unfulfilled potentialities. Traditionally this is the house of 'sacrifice', and is often connected with prisons, betrayal and self-undoing. Although we can choose to become trapped and frustrated by the many obstructions to attaining our dreams, we can also choose to reach outward and upward to a more fulfilled state, transcending the usual down-dragging conditions and rising above difficulties - thus establishing a life nearer our ideal. Here in the twelfth house we have the capacity to attain liberation by using our visionary scope and working creatively with life's intangibles - the power of imagination!

Scorpio on the 12th House Cusp. Scorpio is intense, passionate, and very personal. It rushes past superficialities and right to the heart of any matter. A loyal friend but a fanatic foe, this sign does well in politics and all areas where someone who dares is rewarded. Associated with sexual energy, Scorpio loves to get involved, going down deeper, coming up dirtier, and laying bare anything that lies hidden there.  

Neptune in the 12th House. You can be prone to unusual fears and anxieties, and personal care is needed with respect to the effects of alcohol and drugs, as abuse of these substances could bring about your own undoing. More positively, you can become involved with charity work and caring for the needy. You have very high ideals, and a vision of unity and togetherness that allows you to be self-sacrificing and tolerant.

Lastly, there is no 'one and only' reading of the birth chart. The symbols of your horoscope change as your life changes - they mean one thing in the life of a youngster, and quite another in middle age. The mystery of the astrological symbols, and part of their beauty, is that they are flexible enough to be relevant and fixed enough to be meaningful, allowing you to approach your horoscope again and again with questions about past, present and future concerns.

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Here is Alice's natal chart from Cafe Astrology:

Birth Chart

This birth chart report shows the positions of the planets for Alice.

The Sun represents vitality, a sense of individuality and outward-shining creative energy.

Sun in Aquarius. One of the standout characteristics of those born under the Sun Sign of Aquarius is their unwillingness to follow the beaten track. With advancement and progress on their minds, there can be an irreverence to old and outdated ways of thinking and doing things. Many Aquarians aim to free themselves of personal and social conditioning. Although open to change in theory, Aquarians can be surprisingly stubborn. Their idealism runs strong, but they can be very fixed in their opinions.

Often a bit aloof and even standoffish, Aquarians nonetheless are usually well-liked. They are curious and observant, and tolerant in a broad sense. Prejudice and bias is offensive to the typical Aquarius. Aquarians are generally very clever, witty, and intellectual. They value progress and frankness. It's difficult to throw Aquarians for a loop--they're generally on top of things. There is a bit of reformer in Aquarius. They'll try to get you to see through superficiality, and encourage you to be open and forthright. "Be true to yourself" and "Don't follow the crowd" are mottos we easily associate with this sign. Aquarians need space and value personal freedom. Any attempt to box them in will likely fail. They'll happily return the favor; and they will treat people from all walks of life as equals. Equality and fairness are hallmarks of the sign. If you're quirky and "different", all the better.

Short description: She is independent, autonomous, and has progressive ideas. Weaknesses: an unusual, rebellious and revolutionary spirit.

Aquarius ascendant Sagittarius

Sun in II. You take pride in what you own, and have a strong drive for security. You have staying power, and you hate to let others down once you've made a promise. Avoid over-identifying with what you have. Concentrate on proving your worth through your strong value system and your incredible ability to stick with things and with people. Take pride in the solid and secure foundations that you build, as well as the lasting relationships you aim to maintain, while being careful to avoid possessiveness. You seek a safe and secure job, you satisfy your needs, which are substantial. You may be given to spending money impulsively.

292 Conjunction Sun - Mercury. Because your ego and your mind are aligned, you possess much mental energy. You are always in a position to think about what you want, and in many ways, this is an interruption of the will. You are highly intelligent with a great drive to communicate with other. You invest a lot of pride in your intellectual capacities. You may not always listen as well as you speak, however! You might be too busy thinking about what to say next. But you are very curious and although you enjoy expressing yourself, you usually don't dominate conversations completely. As far as studying or learning goes, you are better off reading the material than listening to a teacher. These traits come from a strong need to take an active role in communications. It is very hard for you to passively listen and absorb information.

Your opinions are usually strong and you are an independent thinker. You tend to be proud of your opinions and thoughts, and might easily get a bruised ego if you are not "heard", if your opinions are pushed aside or ignored, or if your opinions are criticized. You are expressive and possibly a very animated speaker. You are also very witty and others enjoy your playful and sometimes mischievous sense of humor.

13 Sextile Sun - Neptune. There is an unmistakably dreamy, inspired, and sensitive side to you. A marked appreciation for music and the arts is present. The connection of Neptune with the Sun, which represents the ego and the will, certainly softens some of the hard edges that might be found elsewhere in the chart, adding a sensitive and spiritual dimension to your personality. You are naturally compassionate. It is so completely natural for you to accept that there is more to the world than what is before your eyes, that you tend to presume everyone must be spiritually-inclined. Of course, you come to realize that this is not the case at some early point in your life. Your attraction to spirituality and metaphysical subjects is usually marked. These aspects favor writers, artists, and musicians. You are sensitive to those who are suffering, although you are not usually taken advantage of. You are humanitarian and may have a special connection with animals. If other aspects and positions in the chart support it, you are not one to dominate others or assert yourself to the point of brashness. You have a fertile imagination, are full of inspiration, and very emotional - all qualities that you may use on the professional level.

44 Sextile Sun - Ascendant. It is easy and natural for you to be received well by others. There is a distinct air of authority and magnanimity surrounding you. The authority you project generally doesn't offend others, generally because sincerity is sensed at the same time. Most people would describe you as natural, easy to like, and friendly. You may have a marked interest in the performing arts and/or sports and games, both as a spectator and participant. This is an especially favorable aspect to have for those who are in the public eye.

The Moon represents the emotional responses, unconscious pre-destination, and the self-image.

Moon in Sagittarius. More than anything, Lunar Sagittarians have a need for personal freedom and space. They are extraordinarily happy and easygoing folk, as long as they don't feel caged in or cooped up. Lunar Sagittarians have a simultaneous need for activity. Meeting new people, going out in the world, and travel are all important to their sense of well-being. They love open spaces, and, in their homes, a roomy and bright environment. There's a bit of a teacher in Moon in Sagittarius, and definitely a helpful spirit. They easily forget appointments and the like, and some are even considered irresponsible. However, it is hard to stay angry at a Lunar Sagittarian! They are so cheerful and upbeat, and their optimism is catchy.

Many people with this position are outdoorsy types. At the very least, they have a great love for friendly competition. When the going gets tough, these people run away. They don't like to be caught up in routine for too long, and they simply need to escape. There's a blind faith in Lunar Sagittarians that is admirable. They simply believe that everything will work out. Not much for making detailed plans, people with Moon in Sagittarius prefer to wing it. They're very adaptable and generally on the go.

Short description: Likes to throw herself into the unknown and into adventure: she is agile, tough and enthusiastic. Attracted to long voyages, to discover the unknown. Weaknesses: takes great risks in throwing herself into the unknown and into adventure. Audacious, bold and rebellious. Unable to stay in one place, is always ready to risk everything to achieve her goal.

Moon in I. Very sensitive. Fantasizes. She is easily frightened, she is fearful, shy, prudent and emotional.

Your feelings are right out there for everyone to see, and you can come across as emotional and impatient, or nurturing and caring (or both). Your first reaction is emotional, especially if the Moon is in close proximity (within ten degrees) of the Ascendant degree. You need emotional stimulation, movement, and freedom to express yourself in order to feel happy and fulfilled. Your moods are very changeable, and this can be quite obvious to others. Because of your emotional sensitivity, you might often take things too personally, and react too quickly. Developing an awareness that others' emotions are just as important, even if they are not as overt and immediate as yours, will be important.

180 Sextile Moon - Mercury. You can be quite expressive and animated in your speech. You have an outstanding memory and tend to pick up a lot of information from your environment. You love to chat and to exchange ideas. Even if you are shy, once you're friends, you love to talk about pretty much anything under the sun, and you enjoy sharing stories from your past! For the most part, you are focused on day-to-day activities in your communications rather than on grander philosophies. You are naturally curious and interested, and others find you very easy to talk to. You are accommodating and curious, but you are not as well equipped to handle heavy emotional demands. You thrive on change and variety. You might be a little addicted to gossip! More probably, however, you are simply very curious about others. There is a twinkle in your eyes, and you are never short on humor. You are playful and versatile--you make a fun companion and an interesting friend. You listen! Yes, you do talk and occasionally interrupt in your excitement, but you are a curious person who does want to hear what others have to say, and that is a real pleasure. In fact, you are more able than most people to get others talking, simply because you are very receptive and sympathetic. You pick up others' feelings and body language readily.

-119 Square Moon - Jupiter. She is sometimes indifferent to others, to those who surround her: she is, without thinking, negligent and indecisive. She may "feed" inner restlessness with excesses in gambling, shopping, or other comforts, and her honesty is sometimes a bit elastic. This aspect does not help professional success, especially as she tends to spend more than she earns. Sometimes enthusiastic and gung-ho, and other times indifferent, it can be challenging for others to understand her. Needs to find constructive avenues for her inner restlessness.

Mercury represents communication, Cartesian and logical spirit.

Mercury in Aquarius. Not necessarily loud or flamboyant, but she often has a quiet way of stirring others up. Delights in exposing what she deems biases in others' way of thinking. Very quick to contradict others, and to offer a different perspective, she enjoys intellectual debates. Amazing powers of observation, and a quirky way of looking at the world. Humorous and interesting. Loves practical jokes and raising eyebrows.

Mercury in II. Intelligence geared towards ways of making money, becoming rich. All methods are good, sometimes she is on the borderline of honesty.

You have a very practical mind and intelligence, seeing the obvious, most logical answer to any predicament often before others. You don't like to be put on the spot or pushed into talking or coming to a conclusion. Studies are similar--you need to work at your own steady pace. You can be quite one-track minded at times, not very happy with multi-tasking, and often quite fixed in your opinions. Sensual stimuli is more relevant to you than abstract concepts.

34 Conjunction Mercury - Lilith.
Venus represents an interest for emotions and values, exchange and sharing with others.

Venus in Pisces. Venus in Pisces people project themselves as dreamy, soft-hearted partners. Everything about the way they flirt promises a lovely time. Theirs is an elusive charm -- they are sweetly playful, a little moody, and perhaps a little irregular. They appreciate romance and poetry, and they prefer to "feel out" both you and the relationship you share, so don't expect too much planning ahead. Their sensitivity can be a little misleading at times. Yes, they are sensitive folk, but lovers may find it maddening that this sensitivity is not only directed at them, but towards all of mankind. Venus in Pisces men and women want you to know that their love is unconditional. They are unimpressed by your status, and love and accept you for all that you are inside. They love the underdog and are attracted to wayward folks, or those in need of a little help. With their romantic view of the world, they can be unreasonably attracted to states of suffering and martyrdom, so they easily get into the role of saving someone, or being saved. Unlike Venus in Libra, which thrives on equality, Venus in Pisces is actually turned on by inequality! They can be rather confusing and hard to pin down as they feel their way through their relationships. As much as they may want to, they find it hard to commit. Many do end up committing, however, at least on the surface.

Pleasing Venus in Pisces involves enjoying tender moments and romantic times with them. You won't always be able to count on them. In fact, you can be sure they will stretch the truth every once in a while. But remember they do this because they fear they might hurt you, and they can't bear to cause you any heartache. Try to understand them, although that's never an easy task considering the fact that they don't always know themselves. And, truth is, some Venus in Pisces privately have a love affair going with the idea of being misunderstood. Try to put up with their apparent lack of direction in the relationship -- they are so receptive and open to all possibilities that it is hard for them to commit to any one thing, idea, or even person. These intriguing partners will reward you with a love that is accepting and comes as close to unconditional as humans can get.

Venus in III. Likes everything that is beautiful, likes decorum. Outstanding intelligence. She may work in a trade linked to beauty, fashion. Numerous select friends.

You are verbally expressive, diplomatic, and aim to be tactful. You easily win others over with your words, whether it's because of a likeable facility with language, a beautiful voice, or a diplomatic use of words. You readily give out compliments. Some of you might use flattery to your own benefit at the risk of being ingenuine. You are generally a very good mediator, aiming to settle arguments quickly and restoring at least temporary peace. You have a mischievous side, however, and your desire to be tactful and polite with others doesn't always succeed. Some of you might engage in a lot of mind games, and others might eventually find out that you don't always mean what you say or say what you mean! You value mental stimulation and frequent changes of scenery in your love relationships.

252 Sextile Venus - Mars. She is amorous, not a peaceful and calm lover but a passionate one with a strong temperament. She is demonstrative in love, and likes healthy pleasures. She enjoys life to the full.

17 Trine Venus - Saturn. She has a good grasp of reality and of duty. She is thrifty, reserved and does not show off. She likes truth and justice. In love, her sentiments are sincere and deep, she never plays false. She is, of course, faithful in love and friendship. She can love a much older person and appreciates her intelligence and good sense.

-80 Square Venus - Neptune. She might lack self-confidence and her ideals are not easy to achieve. In love, she is unstable and deceitful or meets people who are like this. She is easy-going and follows others' wishes in love, and she lets the partner take the initiative.

This aspect indicates a suggestible romantic nature. Being "in love with love" is a strong possibility. You are naturally compassionate and are generally willing to go over the top for a loved one. It's hard to say whether your expectations in personal relationships are too high or too low. On the one hand, you tend to easily accept behaviors in your partners that others wouldn't accept, as you are compassionate and even drawn to people who others might consider trouble. On the other hand, your romantic dreams may be so powerful that you are easily disappointed with the reality of relationships. Deception in love is possible, but self-deception is even more likely. In love, you see what you want to see, rather than what is. Feelings of being used or deceived may come up. However, if a distinct pattern exists in your love life that involves you being let down, deceived or used, it will be especially worthwhile to examine whether self-deception was at work.

The possibility of clinging to romantic delusions is very high with this position. For example, some with these aspects cling to a romantic notion that someone loves them when in reality that person doesn't return the affection. Or, they may cling to a romance that has lost all hope. Another possibility is devoting their love to someone who is unattainable or who is unable to commit. Yet another Venus-Neptune scenario is loving someone who treats them badly, all the while clinging to an idealized image of the partner. No matter what the scenario, romantic yearning and longing, as well as delusion, tends to be the theme. The expectation here is that loving someone requires self-sacrifice. The result is an attraction to relationships that are co-dependent and even abusive. Venus-Neptune people are drawn to victim/savior relationships, and they can play either the role of victim or savior! Dependency or neediness in a partner can be confused for love. In an attempt to love unconditionally, you may too readily sacrifice your own needs and eventually feel used.

43 Conjunction Venus - Lilith. This aspect means charm, beauty, attracts the opposite sex by her magnetism: she is not always serious in love.

-46 Square Venus - Ascendant. She goes to excess in her pleasures, frequents doubtful company. She lacks good taste. She is very spendthrift, but spreads her money around her circle. Her friends are more self-interested than sincere.

Mars represents the desire for action and physical energy.

Mars in Capricorn. With fiery Mars in the more orderly sign of Capricorn, natives with this position have a subdued and controlled style of approaching life. Most don't come across as particularly enthusiastic; rather, theirs is a low-key but determined energy. Mars in Capricorn natives like to be on top of things. They are generally goal-oriented and focused people who are not afraid of hard work. Most are achievers by nature, and many possess well-defined ambitions--well-defined to themselves more than anything. They're not particularly flashy people, but their drive to succeed and to make their lives secure is strong, even if it's not right out there for the world to see. Anger is expressed in a rather cool, level-headed way with this position of Mars. Self-control is strong when it comes to expressing anger, drive, energy, and sexuality. Capricorn is a sign that detests waste of any kind. It also fears disorderliness and "letting go". With Mars in Capricorn, there is generally a powerful need to stay in control.

This is not to say that natives of this position are cold in any sense of the word. Their desires are strong, but they are often centered around the physical and material world--all that can be seen and held. With Mars in an Earth sign, sensuality is expressed in an earthy way. However, unlike Mars in Taurus, for example, (another earth sign), Mars in Capricorn is not self-indulgent by nature. These people are usually quite disciplined. Capricorn possesses the ability to plan for the future--something that many other signs have difficulty doing. Mars in Capricorn natives are working toward realistic and attainable goals. They are productive people who get off when they see tangible results from their efforts. Many natives with this position are a little hard on themselves, and sometimes others. They usually can be relied upon because they have an innate sense of responsibility to both themselves and to those they care about. Most of them are very hard-working, and one of their strategies for anger management is to throw themselves even more energetically into their work!

Mars in I. She gets carried away a lot. She is provocative, impulsive, dynamic and bold. Great spirit of enterprise. She has a great need of activity and throws herself into projects without thinking of the consequences of possible setbacks, nor of the dangers that may arise.

Her reactions to new situations are immediate and pressing. She is an active, energetic, dynamic, enterprising, and possibly even forceful or aggressive person. She tends to begin new endeavors with gusto, although follow-through is not necessarily indicated by this position alone. Some might be rash, inconsiderate, or overly assertive. She can be fiercely independent, and she is usually direct and straightforward. Spontaneity is extremely important to her. Some might stir up trouble, whether consciously or unconsciously, when she is bored.

-153 Opposition Mars - Saturn. She is only interested in doing something if there are problems attached: once these are solved, she goes on to something else which has complications. She likes to overcome obstacles, is tough, does not have too many feelings, especially in business. She is egoistic, violent and stubborn. She does not always make friends.

-64 Square Mars - Pluto. You have a tendency to impose your will upon others, which can cause severe problems for yourself when they react in self-defense. You have a hair-trigger temper and may even resort to verbal or physical abuse when upset. Learning to react to unpleasant circumstances with your intellect rather than your emotions comes with maturity.

It is all too easy for you to find something negative about a situation. Avoid issuing ultimatums when you meet an obstacle. Instead, find a way to convince others to work with you of their own free will. Ordinary life often seems drab and uninteresting to you and you must have something that stirs your imagination, some vision or ideal or dream to motivate you. You have a strong urge to act out your fantasies or to live your dream, and you will DO things that others only talk about or dream about. Artistic creation, drama, or other areas in which you can express yourself imaginatively are excellent for you.

You do not easily tolerate a dominating attitude in others. You have a healthy respect for power and authority, but only if it is handled fairly.

This aspect gives you a somewhat Scorpionic attitude toward your lovers, and it can modify the traits associated with the sign of your Mars considerably. In other words, there is a distinct possessive and demanding streak in your sexual nature. Your approach to love and sex can be quite intense at times. Your sexual desire nature is a very strong one, and you may even use sex as a bargaining chip in your relationships in order to achieve your goals. More likely, however, is a very focused and intense sexual nature. This also adds a very magnetic quality to your appeal. When a woman finds you attractive, it can transform into a near obsession! Your aura is strong and somewhat mysterious. You tend to come across as stronger than you intend. In fact, some people are intimidated by you, and you may not understand why this is so. When you want something (or someone!) you are very determined. For you, it can be "all or nothing". When you are finished with something, you leave it behind you and there is no going back. You want a deep, soulful attachment on a sexual level. In your love life you do not take rejection well. You fear betrayal and abandonment, and this can skew your perception of your lover. You have a highly developed sex drive, but you must learn to rein in your aggressiveness in this area. Power struggles and control issues may surface often in your relationships. You perceive the cruel edge in people, and understand its source. Self-confidence develops out of self-control in your interaction with others.

Jupiter represents expansion and grace.

Jupiter in Pisces. She attracts the most good fortune when she is charitable, tender, devoted, compassionate, looks out for the underdog, and is giving. Values compassion and charity, and is motivated by a universal vision. Peaceful personal philosophy. Faith in the goodness of life brings rewards.

Jupiter in III. She has good judgement, a sense of values, an open and optimistic mind, a good education and high moral standards. She likes studying. She is successful in communications work. Her professional work is a vocation and plays a great part in her life.

-3 Square Jupiter - Ascendant. She appears to have a very honorable and generous attitude toward others, as if she has their best interests at heart. Because to others she seems tolerant, understanding, or even wise, they may also turn to her for advice. May go to excess when eating.

Saturn represents contraction and effort.

Saturn in Cancer. May feel fundamentally unloved and unsupported, but can miss opportunities to receive support because of the basic attitude that she isn't going to get love.

Saturn in VII. She takes one-to-one relationships very seriously - so seriously that she may never marry or marry late. Relationships, marriage may not be fruitful or may be felt to be burdens if Saturn is afflicted. A strong sense of responsibility towards partner. Partner may be serious, mature, or restrictive. She marries fairly late but her feelings are sincere and stable. She is persevering, methodical and persistent, which brings professional success.

-17 Square Saturn - Pluto. She is not open to others' ideas, especially if they are free-thinking. She is an egoist and has a narrow mind.

Uranus represents individual liberty, egoistic liberty.

Uranus in Scorpio. Intelligent and subtle. Adores research, inquiry, investigation. Very sensual.

Uranus in XI. Her freedom is important to her, even with regard to friends. These are extravagant, original, intellectual. They are not from the same background and have a different up-bringing.

16 Trine Uranus - Lilith. She lives through marvelous adventures - without any follow-up, it is true, but which leave a happy memory. She will have many such adventures and fantastic love-at-first-sight encounters.

Neptune represents transcendental liberty, non-egoistic liberty.

Neptune in Sagittarius. Likes long voyages, things foreign, water.

Neptune in XII. She likes isolation, a withdrawn life, dreams and meditation. She has little desire for action.

36 Sextile Neptune - Pluto

68 Conjunction Neptune - Ascendant. She has strange relationships. She is easily influenced, very sensitive and emotional.

Pluto represents transformations, mutations and elimination.

Pluto in Libra. Looks for new ways to relate to others.

7 Sextile Pluto - Ascendant. She has will-power and ambition, and likes to have her own way.



Aquarius ascendant Sagittarius

Ascendant House I in Sagittarius. House I is the area of self identity. The ascendant is a symbol of how one acts in life. It is the image of the personality as seen by others, and the attitude that one has towards life. The world is filled with adventure, new things to experience, and, most of all, hope, with this Ascendant. There is an unmistakable faith and enthusiasm with Sagittarius rising people. Grand schemes, big promises, and a willingness to explore and experiment are themes, although follow-through is not a strong characteristic of Sagittarius. These individuals are somewhat restless and often active people. They always seem to be looking for something that is just out of grasp -- and many do this their entire lives. They can be quite direct at times, yet they are likable enough to forgive for their faux-pas. Most have a lot to say and offer. Their insights and opinions are usually interesting and exciting, although sometimes lacking in details.

Sagittarius rising people have opinions about everything, and they just love telling others exactly what they are. Not all people with this position are outgoing folk, but they all have a way of moving about that at least exudes a certain level of confidence. Some might even call them naive or overly optimistic. Even the quiet ones don't shrink from life and from experience. One of the most obvious and endearing traits of Sagittarius rising is their willingness to keep up a sense of humor. Even when they're feeling low, they manage to find humor in life and have fun with whatever they do have. The placement of Sagittarius' ruling planet, Jupiter, will give more clues to how they go about expressing themselves. Jupiter in Capricorn, for example, might give a more sarcastic approach, but underneath there lies an unmistakable hope and spirit for living.

House II in Capricorn. House II is the area of material security and values. It rules money and personal finances, sense of self-worth and basic values, personal possessions. A cautious approach to money and personal finances, possessions. Financial success may be slow but steady. A hard worker. Savings are important. Patience with accumulating. Money situation improves with maturity.

House III in Aquarius. House III is the area of social and intellectual learning. She is always at the forefront of progress. Likes everything that is new, original and ingenious. Likes every new idea, as long as it improves life and naturally is good for everyone. She is happy to travel even at a moment's notice, likes a life full of change and meetings.

House IV in Aries. House IV is the area of home, family, roots, and deep emotions/sense of self-worth. Lots of authority within the family. She knows how to take the destiny of the family in hand. She is very energetic, very strong, knowing how to cope with life's setbacks.

House V in Taurus. House V is the area of creative self-expression, romance, entertainment, children, and gambling. A pleasant home, a charming husband, loving and sweet children, nice little meals, pleasant evenings with the loved one, that's the good life.

House VI in Taurus. House VI is the area of learning by material transaction. Completely trusted at work. Knows how to keep a secret and is of irreproachable honesty. Weak point: the throat.

House VII in Gemini. House VII is the area of one-to-one relationships such as marriage and partnership, and of social and intellectual action. Marries quite young, and divorces later. A second marriage doubtless with less passion but a lot of friendship. Frightened of living alone in old age.

House VIII in Cancer. House VIII is the area of emotional security and of security of the soul. Small inheritances.

House IX in Leo. House IX is the area of learning that shapes the identity. She is tolerant, accepts all differences and respects them. She is honest and loyal.

House X in Libra. House X is the area of material action. The Mid-heaven represents the work one will do in his life, the place one will take in the world of society. It becomes more important as one grows older. Contacts of all kinds will lead to social success, professional, through marriage etc... Likes society life, friendships that could help professionally. Sometimes jobs connected with justice, but always involved with important and influential people.

House XI in Scorpio. House XI is the area of search for social and intellectual security. Adores to debate endlessly with friends who don't share her ideas. The discussion can lead to words, even a certain verbal violence.

House XII in Scorpio. House XII is the area of education and of emotion. Work in the police field, likes investigating other people's private lives.